I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
And you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
You still have all of me ah, me ah, me ah


Lyrics submitted by cailin, edited by PaulieTheSlide, pkbak, Barquisemeto

My Immortal Lyrics as written by David Hodges Ben Moody

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  • +25
    My Interpretation

    This song came out around the time my parents were going through a violent divorce, which ended in my father commiting sucide. I remember my mom listening to this and crying, i was to young to truly understand how beautifully deep this song was. I think its about a relationship ending, but one you can never have back.

    savannaax3on August 10, 2012   Link
  • +19
    General Comment

    Well, it's really about a guy and a girl who are best friends and were secretly in love with each other but didn't act on it. One of them suddenly died, and the other was left with this incredible feeling of loneliness and regret because she never told him how much she loved him. Then, she feels that her friend's ghost is haunting her and she wants him to just leave her alone. . .but she doesn;t want to let him go at the same time. Very, very sad! Ben actually wrote it, not Amy. They explained this at a concert I went to recently. Oh and Micheal Dark, Ben and Amy are just good friends. . .always have been. . .As far as we know anyway.

    Evanescencechic4evaon April 11, 2003   Link
  • +9
    My Opinion

    This song is so beautiful. It makes me cry, because I can sort of relate to it. I think it's about a girl who loves a boy, but she knows it can't work out. She tries so hard to make him happy, but it's not enough for him. Plus he doesn't try to help her when she needs him. She decides that she's had enough hurt from him so she tries to move on, but her thoughts drive crazy. She's wondering why she still cares and wondering why he didn't try. Why couldn't he have cared more? Now she's stuck feeling how she's always felt about him, but he's gone. She can't get over it. Over him. She's forever his, whether she wants to be or not.

    But this is just how I think of it. Depressing as it is.

    ShySilhouetteon March 19, 2012   Link
  • +8
    General Comment

    Beautifully haunting and easily my favorite song on the whole album. Amy Lee's vocals rock on every track, but they move me to tears on this song every time I hear it. When it crescendos to "i've been alone all along" something wells deep within my chest...ahhh! soooooo enchanting and so sad. It's a painful remembrance of a loved one lost. Makes me want to cherish everybody I have now so I'll never feel so painfully alone...

    kellymac23on March 19, 2003   Link
  • +8
    General Comment

    Who doesn't cry when they listen to this?

    kellixxy1on November 18, 2008   Link
  • +7
    Memory

    This song has so much pain and feeling put into it. If you've ever been left by someone that meant the world to you, this song expresses it perfectly. When you love someone that much and they leave and you feel they may never return, even when they're miles away, it's like their right beside you, haunting you. I hear this song when she's on my mind, and it's all I can do not to burst into tears in hurts so bad. Like a hole in your life they used to fill is empty, never to be fully filled. But they say sometimes you have to hurt before you can ever heal.

    Rebel37on February 05, 2011   Link
  • +6
    General Comment

    when i first heard it, i though break-up song, but pretty sure now it's about death.. i can't stop listening to it, even though it makes me so sad.. does anyone else feel like that? it creeps me out, but i am absolutely in love with it at the same time. i agree with kellymac, makes you want to enjoy time with loved ones now, cause you never know when they'll be gone..

    watchmedisappearon April 08, 2003   Link
  • +6
    Song Fact

    The song has many different interpretations. Ben wrote a short story before writing the lyrics to the song. According to Ben, the song is about a spirit staying with you after its death and haunting you until you actually wish that the spirit were gone because it won't leave you alone. Ben dedicated the song along with the Fallen album to his grandfather. ... Thats the story behind this song!

    Source: The Evanescence reference

    LunaLacrymosaon August 28, 2013   Link
  • +4
    General Comment

    I agree with kellymac, I see as this person facing off a ghost. Not an actual aparition per se, but the ghost of a loved one lost. This person is coming to grips with the pain of losing someone and can't help but put a little blame in that lost one because wherever the person is, she experiences the painful memories and dreams.

    The emotion is so wonderful in this song. This to me is the powerful line in the song: "i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone but though you're still with me i've been alone all along" Because the person is trying so hard to come to grips and it is such torture because she experiences the worst of both worlds. Not only does the person feel the pain of those wonderful memories that haunt her, but she also realizes she is alone. Like a glass barrier is between the two lovers and they can see each other, but can never experience the fullness of their love. God, life's not fair sometimes.

    Once against Amy Lee and Ben Moody have a way of making you feel something you haven't though about before, with their twist on what its like to be immortal. That a person passed on makes such an impact on the other person's life, that they suffer for it. Usually immortality is seens as something very positive.

    But I believe this song tries in a way to be positive. I'm not saying it's bad. For it talks about the pain everyone must endure in losing someone. The risk we all take for love. But, I do wish for this (and when this happens I will probably swallow my words), because it will mean I've met someone who truly defined me. So much, they live on inside of me.

    chino69on May 09, 2003   Link
  • +3
    General Comment

    I heard this song for the first time yesterday. And I have been listening to it ever since. It makes me cry every time. This song is so obviously about the grief and pain of losing someone, and because life and friendships can be here one day and gone the next it's something we can all relate to. I'm going through rocky times with my boyfriend, and When I heard this song I thought about him. He's still my boyfriend, but I feel so alone right now. This song also reminds me of my dad who died a few years ago. It's amazing how even after years the pain is still so defined. Turning on this song and just crying is such a release for me.

    I love the desperation and emotion in Amy's voice. I like that the words actually MEAN something. It's deep and haunting. Evanescence has definitely become one of my favourite bands.

    bitchgoddesson May 10, 2003   Link

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